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Monday, 29 March 2010

  • Fact is:

    This town & the ppl in it are making me a ticking time bomb.

    I give & care too much which helps ppl take advantage of me.

    I always fall in love alone.

    Ive come to realize the true ways of ppl and the fact that they are immoral is a real dissapointment.

    I lied to you about being in love just to see if you could maybe be in love with me. You got mad bc I dropped it in on an arguement & later said that I know you love me. But I dont know that. At all...

    I feel like Ill never mean as much to you as your ex-fiance. I have never felt that kind of love & that makes me sad.

    I have daddy issues & that makes me not trust the male species. Thanks alott fatherrrr. Youve fucked up my head in more ways than one. I hope the new baby is healthy tho, hope it knows how lucky it will be to recieve all the love that I never got to.

    I definetly put up with wayy to much bullshit in my relationship & I dont know if we are worth saving.

    I'll explode before its over, I swear I will.

Sunday, 14 March 2010

  • Is something wrong with me?

    I dont even know where to start about the things that have been dwelling on my mind lately. If I start on Dave Ill just keep going. Why havent we said I love you yet, even to hear to u say it to ur mom kills me...I want you to say that to me. I love YOU. I really do. I think if I just knew you loved me then I wouldnt pick you apart about shit.

     

     

    OH and you totally lied to my face awhile back about the Tammy thing. I asked you if you guys fucked and u said no....and then the other day you decide to tell me that you guys did. I figured you did by the way u both act but u couldve just been straight up with me.

     

    And whats with you thinking your my daddy & shit. Your not. Everytime we r intoxicated together we always end up arguing or finding sumthing to pick at each other about. You said you were trying to be happy with me. I dont even know how to. Im so full of doubt in everything. Once everything is great and I feel like we will last...something pops up and you make me feel low again. I really think I have self-issues to work thru tho. When im having a depressing day sometimes you just tell me to get over it. Ya know, sometimes I just wanna vent to somebody without the criticism. I really hate drinking. I honestly wouldnt care if i never saw another drop of alcohol in my life. God do i hate it. Your true colors really show when your at the bar playing music, esp. if youve been drinking. Sorry i dont really wanna associate with all the ppl there...theyve all been on ur dick. God i hate this small town...well small state since even a certain friend in Marion has had you....Dammit i knew i was gonna keep going if i got started. Might as well.  You got a new phone and said you only put the ppls numbers in it that made a shit to you. Well why the fuk is Lacey's number in ur new phone?!?!?!?!?! UGH you have made me hate my own friend. And its not even her fault. Its yours and I dont know wut to do about it because youve had sex with everyone. Im so glad you feel wanted all the time bc I dont. Its your fault.

Thursday, 04 March 2010

  • Lemo-naaade

    The weather isnt really getting warmer but my heart is. (wow, im sucha cheeseball when im happy)

    Since youve been back, lets look at the changes being made.

    Kenny is gone and neither of us has had one drop of alcohol since he left. AWESOME.

    Your crazy motivation for working out & dieting is AWESOME. Ty for including me in that btw :]

    We havent argued one time since youve been back. AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME

    You havent wanted me to leave your side for one night since youve been back. Its really a lovely feeling to feel needed/wanted.

    Your really proving to me that all the shit we have been thru the past few months is worth it. We are so good at working together. I have even gotten better at telling you how I feel about things that I dont want to talk about.

    Its great being in such a stable relationship.

    Geez, Im sucha happy camperrr.

     

Sunday, 28 February 2010

  • Distance

    definetly makes the heart grow fonder.

    You only left Friday and I know your coming back tomorrow. But I boohooed when you left.

    I hate sleeping in your bed without you. You dont really know how much of an impact someone can make on you until they're over 100 miles away for 3 days. I had to bite my tongue from saying I love you before you left. I cant wait to NOT have to bite my tongue from saying that.

    I want to feel my cheek on your chest.

    I want to feel your legs across mine while I sleep.

    I want to hear your smartass comments lol.

    I want to hear your dreadful snore :]

    I long to feel your lips on mine, even if just for a second.

    I just want you to come home & I dont want you to ever leave again unless I'm with you.

    I miss you. :[

Saturday, 27 February 2010

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